My cold roses tattoo. The day after I did it :)
This is one person that have effected me the most through my hole life. I’ve listen to Adams ever since I was 11 years old. I remember that day, the day when I first heard his music.
I remember how, I as a young girl, always looked at my dad’s cd-collection. I liked looking at the different album arts they hade. And I don’t know, somehow my eyes were drawn to one of the albums he hade. It was Ryan Adams “Heartbreaker”. I looked at the strange man lying on a bed with a cigarette. I thought he was so cool. I took the album in to my room and but in my stereo. And there, something happened. His music was nothing I ever hade heard before, but I liked it. Then I realized that this was the first time that I actually cared about the words. That this man had beautiful stories to tell. And for a little girl that felt a bit uncomfortable with her self and hade started question life, too have someone tell those stories about love and life meant a lot for her.
A few week’s later my dad, after he hade found me listening to his Ryan Adams cd, came to me with another cd and said that I should listen to it if I liked “Hearbreaker”. It was Adams “Gold” album. And just like the other album cover there was something with this one. I think it was that I never really seen his whole face. That he always was looking in another way. And I think that’s wary important. ‘Cause then it was never about the way he looked, it was only about the music.
Just like the first one I put it in my stereo and listened to the whole thing. After listening to it once I didn’t really get that affect that I got from the first one. I didn’t like that it was different from the first one. But the second time around I sat there on my bedroom floor with the lyrics in my hand. And all of a sudden the album started too grown on me.
This was in the fall. And it was going to be in the summers were I would realize that he hade made so much more music then just these two albums. I went through my year with listening to “Heartbreaker” and “Gold” from time to time. Maybe I was feeling down and need a pick-me-up-moment, but whatever it was, he was always there and helped me through life. And I was happy with just these two albums. At summer time when I hade grown a little more, sense the first time I heard Adams, I started to know a little bit more how to use computers. I started to look him up on Google. I wanted to know who this man was. Where did he get all his inspiration from?
And that man, I tell you changed a lot of things. I found out that he hade released more albums. I saw that after “Gold” he hade released a album called “Demolition”. I mentioned that for that and was happy that there was more out there. But he wasn’t surprised at all. Instead he just went upstairs to his room. Came back to me and there it was. He handed over the “Demolition” album to me. At this point I wondered why he hasn’t told me about it. And hade he other albums from Adams in his room? Back to the internet I saw that there were several albums out there that I hadn’t heard about.
“Demolition” was, what I think, the album that made me more opened to his other albums he made. I listened to it and I didn’t have to listen to the whole thing to know that I would love this album. It was a perfect album for the summer. And for me this was a little more mature album, that Adams hade started to shape up a little. But still have that rough feeling in the songs. I remember that summer me and my mum when to Paris for four days. I hade packed all my favorite albums. But I only listened to “Demolition”
And after that all the other albums got in my life. My dad hade even the bootleg cd “Suicide Handbook” and that was the really first time I got to hear him in live kind of feeling. That made me search around YouTube and realize that if I ever were to see him live I would not be disappointed. I remember when I asked dad if he hade the “Rock ‘n’ Roll” album. And when he said no I took my last money and after school I went and bought it and was so happy that I actually have my on Ryan Adams cd. That day I found out which Adams song would be my all time favorite; So Alive.
So after eight years with growing up with Adams I can say that it have probably changed me. I have learned not be too blue eyed. But at the same time learn that there is true love and happiness out there. You might just have too look for it. If I would meet Ryan too day I think I would only say two little words; “Thank you”. Not only thank him for helping me through rough times. But to thank him for the relationship I have today with my father. If I haven’t been introduced to his music me and my dad wouldn’t have anything in common. And I’m glad that it’s only me and my dad that listen to him in this family. ‘Cause in that way we have something to talk about that only we will understand. No matter if its Adams new album or that he hade flipped off another reporter, we always hade something to talk about.
Sorry for the long novel. But this is just a person that means a lot to me and that is my biggest inspiration. And sorry if my English is not the best. I just get so exited over my new tattoo. That I finally got my biggest inspiration on my arm, there where every one can see it.